today was teachers' day celebration,
it's a happy day for most of the teachers as there is no teaching !

anyway, lingered around ..
din really mixed with my da vincian, sry abt tt .
did a performance for the teachers ..
not all events were sucessful but i seriously hope you guys enjoyed it.

i did your wish , you wish is still my command.
im tired, i stood strong, im still tired, i want to rest.
i need to rest.

i strive to keeping my face lift.
i strive to enjoy every moment i have.
current may be against me, im jumping into the current.



love birds are flying above my head .
im always the extra one so i tend to break things up .
sorry for what i have caused .
i will stay away for now until i have a satisfied, resonable advice.
i need help, shit.

oh well; maybe teck whye is too fun that i still can't adapt to NP.
the ccas that i like i just cant seem to find them right now.
im trying various CCA for now .
hope the dates don't clash with my working days.
sighh ,,
i wish i can try triathalon, hoping the days would be tues and thurs.

fencing peeps are too "high class" for me.
im low class, i need jokes that i understand, ppl who don't clique around.
nahh, it's harder than i thought.
EC is there, perhaps i am staying because of her.
i have no interest at all.
i want a cca which i can get tired and fun in, not strategic, mind games.
i never get tired in this cca before.
sheeeees.

CCA madnesss.

how long can you be funny ?
forever and ever?
how long can you be pissed, angered or sad?
please stop being dumb and start kicking some ass!

no doubt some are funny in nature, it's the way they talk .
but when you laughed it off make sense, not everything is funny .
listen, observe.

ahhh, for nuts. .

it had been long since i read a story and been wanting to know what happens next .
hui qing had sent me a link which consist of a story that two JC love birds.
i do not know how true it is but my hands just want to know what's next.
arghh, i cant read the full story because i have to buy the book in order to do so.
i have the urge to buy, should i?

alright!
im darker as it goes .
i hope i wun get any tofu parts around my limbs.
i hate tofu legs i just feel that it gives the ugly looks.
any idea what's tofu legs?
pull up your shorts and if you see the skin tone of your thighs have a VERY MUCH different from shin then that's tofu legs.

sheeeeees,
i do not know what is running through my mind lately .
informations, people, self built problems, yada yada ...
they just come and go, i feel so irritated.

There once was a little boy who had a badtemper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he loses his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.

Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control hisanger, the number of nails hammered dailygradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. "

I changed my blog skin.
Time to change it, because i'm lazy to change photos everytime .

leave the past and move on.
that's my advice for all people who failed in their current love.
treat it as an experience for youself and how to improve on your next relationship.
at the age of below 18, i will not suggest you to go into a deep/long relationship.
because, you are not matured and there's still a long way to go before you can be married and meanwhile you may find someone better. :D
learn from the past, dun look at the past and cry ..

tell me how how how , wad wad wad i should do ?
SEAZZLES camp on this fri sat and sun .
fri, sir wanna see my pattern and pay the fees. sat, i wanna see CSS. sunday for me to slack .
i dunno wad to do .
i really dun feel like going seazzles . but but but, many WAPPOS are going ..

sarah,, engineering euqations aren't fun at all.
jiale,, friday i dunno how la
jiemin,, dun sad la ...
shuyi,, ppl wan to noe u cnt is it? spoiler brat.
khairiyah,, i miss you too .
huiping,, wa lao,, cnt like that de luhh .
jingyin,, wad flirt flirt

im tripping on words

i have nth to say .
if u think that is then that is , i have no energy to care take so much alrdy .
i finally understand how you felt .
sorry ,

note: u and you are two different persons.

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tired tired .
exams and test.
i wanna relax for holidays la.
idiot.
hahahhaaha,

being tagg by that graceful grace to do 10 weird things of myself .

here goes nothing :Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little
known facts about yourself.People who got tagged must write them in a blog of their own.At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged& list their names.(no tagging back!)

1. eat when stress
2. laughed loudly out of a sudden
3. rarely style my hair when im out
4. think im very free when people find it hard to contact me
5. always late
6. hit somebody LIGHTLY when he/she do something wrong or which disturb me.
7. KPO
8. love to help
9. fighter and musician
10. liar

tagg 6 people to do .

JOCELYN TANG MIN HUI
LIM HUI PING (BME H1)
SHUYI
SARAH
BOYFRIEND !
JINGYIN

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phew done with that..
actually wanted to write violet
but i remembered she posted that long time ago.
she must have foresee such lousy game and do it first.
SHEEES

well well well guess what have i found for my picture this time round.
dun get disturbed by it small picture, it has high values.
this picture was taken by a 6610i phone.. hahaha,
this phone is currently with Shuyi.

the group in the picture was formed back in 2004 with the name lamer 6.
the group members are, noel, mabel, rachel, jiale, geraldine and i.
we had fun back then, until some disputes and off we go.

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yesterday was mugging session for me.
i had to mug till now, 3am in the morning then had the chance to change my photo.
not really say mug till now because there's break time.
phew~ get hold on wad's complex number and a little on matrices.
today i will be reading more on matrices again..
and then off to exam..

PHEW~
then i will be done with math paper.
hope i get an A Distinction!

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life ain't as simple as you think it is.
it is actually simpler.
stop loading and unloading unnecessary bag packs.
won't you get tired of it?
carry the necessary cutlery, clothes, money and off you go.
dun carry soft toys, portable TV and laptop for a hike.

you know what i mean. (i hope)

strive for what you want . what you have been hoping for .
dont give up just yet . i am working on it .
i have to fulfil it before i reach 23 .
i hope and i know i can .


- im currently looking for maia lee's zhi guai wo lyrics.

it's lunar 7 again , a ghost month for chinese to be exact.
normally at this point of the month, you will see most chinese go home early to prevent in contact with the ghost.

actually, it's not the ghost im afraid of actually, im afraid of the smoke and the food on the floor!
i repect their religion as much as i respect the others.
i forbid myself from stepping on any ashes i see on the floor.
not being racist, but i saw some other religion's kid kicking the ashes.
sheeees. respect them.

i was wondering,
if muslims believes ghost comes out on certain time of the day .
taoist believes ghost comes out at this period of the year .
and christian believes that there is no ghost but demons.
and other religion im not sure of.
then which one shld we follow arh?

raleigh my loves .
our outing never came true .
but memories are still memories .
i believe no other groups came as strong as us because we lost out keys .
and had to feed the mosquitoes outside the store room. sheeees.

habits habits ..
im trying to change my bad habits .
for instance, not to bite my fingers .

habits aren't easy to change .
changing lives aren't easy.

im sweating like a pig .
NOTE* sweat can be used for humans now .

yesterday was the release of O lvl chinese (june) result.
many wasnt please with their result
but of course there are a few who were really happy with it.

mother tongues are really unpredictable.
because, i din noe why i can get B3.
have to see who your beloved marker is.
sheeeeees.

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i saw my primary school friend, xinning .
she's vivian classmate now.
haha, so happyy to see each other linking up.

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thank you for your love .
you stayed by me .

sad to say , sorry .
loving me was a chore,
loving you wasnt well for me as well .

i dun wan a love you to be a form of regards .
you are nice , thanks for being there .





HAPPY POST.
a tribute to ppl like my BOYFRIEND (Darryl Kok Yi How) and people who said my post was EMO.

I finally finished all my tutorial i suppose to do.
PHEW~ i could easily get 10% for that module of mine.

this 10% plus my practicals = to near flying colours. *WOOO*

now have to focus on my MAJOR EXAMS !
I CAN DO IT !!

SO CAN DARRYL !!
SO HE WUN GO "AIYA, HOW TO DO?" and "SIAO AH! STRESS AH!!!"
=D

As Butch bit my rope, it got loose.
Without much thinking, I threw Butch against his owner.
Later did I know, the owner threw him to the ground.
I finally understood why did Butch release me, so I could bring him along.

I took a quick slide and ran as fast as I could back to Butch carry him up and run.
God knows he is freaking heavy and thus I put him on the floor and we ran together.
Next thing I know i heard a bang sound, immediately I stopped and squat down.
I'm alive!
Butch is alive as well, but he didn't stop he kept on running leaving me at the back.

I picked myself up and continue running to a petrol shop.
Without thinking, I jumped onto a traffic police motor and drove off.
Mind you, I have no driving experience nor driving license.
Now, I am on a motor and fortunately it some how feels as if I'm on a normal bicycle.

I drove all the way to mainland.
The smell of the busy road, the scene of the tall building made me feel like I'm home back in Singapore.
I miss Singapore so much, I can walk in the middle of night without the fear of some mad guy chasing me down the road with a rifle.
The moment I reached mainland, I turned to the police and reported that i had lost my passport, making me unable to return to Singapore.
While I was filling up my particular, as usual it takes forever, the policeman handcuffed me.
I'm such an asshole, I drove a traffic police motor tothe police station when I am under 18.
Which police in the right state of mind wouldn't handcuffed me?
I'm dead.
Firs,t some MOFO and now the legal state.
When will I be able to head back to Singapore?

DON DON DON !
i love my name thus much.

i dun unds why when you come to sec 4, you would tend to use flowery language.
maybe it is because of O level and everyone is trying to improve.

improve in using good and correct form of english is a right way,
but by using flowery language and used it in the wrong sentence it just sounds weird.
one classic example i hate most ,
using the word cum .
i will tell you the definition first, [with; combined with; along with (usually used in combination): My slideshows-cum-workshop is went on smoothly. ]
many start to use "cum" as a word conjuction to "and", which is wrong.
PETER CUM JANE !
oh my god, can you believe how funny it is?
because cum in sex is semen.

so guys, stop using flowery language unnecessarily, use simple english with correct grammar is enough. :D


after so so so so so long finally saw benjamin ,
i miss him so much la.
both of us like playing hide and seek for so long .

but the two little ones hahahahahaha, cos din go dwn on tuesday thus stop seeing them alrdy.
=(

black belt mock grading is coming really soon and my pattern still sucks .
kaixin, gilyn help me can?
seriously i need help but i have no time.

GRACE TAN YAN ZHEN !!!
she is such a nice girl that wanna treats me ice cream.
who wun love such a nice girl ..
but i tink she gonna be nice that day only. :D



i was walking down the muddy path walking through shrubs and bushes.
their thorns tore my shirt and skin and i started to bleed.
despite the blood flowing, i have to persevere or that old man will skin me alive.
i merely stepped onto his husky and he brought his rifle along chasing after me.
the worst part was his husky can track me down with the stinky nose of his and that man has a lorry.

i ran across the field and i saw a convineince stall at the end of it, immediately my face stretched and my cheek bone went higher.
i walked in to the store wanting to buy some bandage to cover my wound.
i couldn't and instead i'm being ambushed.
how stupid can i be?
a little town like this, everyone should know each other and news travels quickly.

i'm doomed, hand was being tied by a thick rope and was brought back to the dog.
i looked into the dog's eye, his watery eyes, puffy hair and slim legs make him look gorgeous and he is only a puppy.
"Butch, search him." immediately the dog pound on me and start to sniff.
Butch? he called that cute little dog BUTCH? where has the world gone to.
the dog started to sniff and and he bit my rope.
something was terribly wrong.

as the trophy is drawing near, do not loosen your grip instead speed on .

look at an olympian, or a long distant runner to be exact.
at the start, they run slowly and steadily.
at the mid, they start to speed up.
getting to the last, they never slow down instead they go even faster.
when they reach the red line, which is the end, they lower their head and run through.

i dunno if you can depict this into your life .

another few pathetic hours, the scariest test is going to be conducted.
the test is introduction to biomedical engineering.
my class or my lecture or the whole course, knows nothing about this module.
or rather, we did not listen to the lecture, sigh..
serve us right..

as a young kid, many things happened in an instance and may choose not to care.
as a teenager, many things happened and want to care so much till a dust became a mountain.
as an adult, many things happened butno choice have to settle it before it really grew to become a mountain.
as an elderly, many things happened but advice was not asked .

saw the irony of life? i did.

kids are said to be innocent but if things aren't expose to them will they ever learn?
let them learn when the problems arises to them?
maybe, that's how we grew up, aint it?

teenagers are when curiosity kills the cat comes into your life.
u wanna try this and that, but if you try it at the wrong place, wrong time, you are in big trouble.
there's always a time and place for anything and everything.

adults, i have not been through it.
but what i have seen they are the toughest people around.
not because they have been through everything, it's that they are the broom to sweep up the rubbish the teenagers and kids have thrown.
when kids wanna join piano, parents fork money .
when kids in competition, parents stood by them .
when kids in pain after tournament, parents rush up to them.
when kids are hungry, food is presented.
tell me, who appreciate them? no one .
until you find them not by your side for a month, then u start to think of them.

elderly, one who is bored in their own life and found boring at times ..
do u agree friends are the one we sought most when we were young?
the elderly too as well .
from young they made friends just like us.
grew up and played together.
one by one, each found a mate get married and slowly it is ur turn.
gatherings became lesser and lesser as one by one has their own family.
after these, the next thing you hear will be your friends are dead.
i sympathy them.. alot.
sadly, most teenagers neglect their grandparent or adults, their parents.
though you love them alot, but aint shown.
they are they one who needs alot of physical love.
im giving a lecture here, yet im the one neglecting as well.

as you can see my paragraph for each stages of life of a human is getting longer and longer.
this shows the responsibility one has to take and cover.
kids responsibity are covered by parents [which i tink it shldnt be]
teenagers are the problematic ones because they are curious but their shit are being swept up by their parents and they hate them for that.

adults, the hardworker. eearn money and cover their children.
their responsibility for the life and death for the elderly and the child.

elderly, the one who takes the most responsibility.
the are the root to the family.

okay , my post may not be understandable to many .
if you do understand please tell me?

dunno why i go to school .
woke up at 10 when my lesson starts at 10 .

SLOWLY, shower, change and eat my breakfast and went down to catch 67.
YAWNS!
933 kept me awake.
:D

on the way there i changed bus to 184 and i saw ziyu there.
chatted with her.
and again slowly walk to school .

walk like one shit
and went into class sit beside the RETARD jocelyn and she forced me to link her and blog abt her .
SIGH~ this kind of classmate.
ahahhahahahahaha .

will you be only a passerby or a friend who would stay ?
are you here only because i have the wealth, fame and looks?
or are you here because of my characteristic?

no doubt i treat you as a friend, but as years pass will we still be as friend?

was being questioned before, in Chinese,
since young till now how many best friends have you changed.

my answer is many .

hello world ,
emo post doesnt equal to unhappy .
darryl, dun worry . :D

these few days life were as usual .
going out to play, go home late, sleep all the way till 1 plus then wake up.
okay,
thanks all the aunties, uncles, kor kor, jie jie, di di, mei mei who said that i had grown fatter and thus look nicer. :D
but the important one is im fatter.
wow~
can u believe it? i finally gained weight .

i heard i have a committee post in alumni band ,
dun wan can?
i dun tink i can commit with the work shift on saturday.

music makes me high .
fighting gives me style .
nonethess,
a musician and fighter .

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everyone is trying to come in contact with you .
you chose to run away from reality,
when you said words dont hurt, are you sure?
people may walk pass you and say, "you fucker, fat ass."
the first thing you say will be, a comment/opinion only.
but deep down, how hurt can you feel?
i dont noe .
trust yourself, trust the people around you .

everyone is pretty and ugly .
when there's a dark side, there will be a bright side .
be yourself, show yourself .
but be aware of your own status,

dance to your move,
sing to your beat .
ciao~

have you ever been unhappy about something and you want to scream but yet you couldn't scream?
have you ever tried to ignore something but yet it is haunting you?
have you ever been on the hating list of others, and your name has been written red several times?

i remembered my motto which was said by david beckham, "you will go through tough time. it is about coming through that." this had brought me thus far.

already said tough period, so how to make it less tough and strive higher?
for myself, i would pick a song which suit my mood and sing it or i would tire myself so much i could sleep without thinking on my bed. worst come to worst, EAT!
i noe some who vent anger on others which is obviously not good. nonetheless, saying is easier than doing it.

some people couldn't take the pressure and commit suicide.
why bother doing so?
you have the courage to die, why not live on?

there's a man, peter, who couldn't take all the pressure that is on his shoulder already and committed suicide by jumping off a building.
while he was falling in looked into some units .
on the eleventh storey, there was this couple quarreling.
this was one of his problems.
on the ninth storey, he saw a man who was looking at his bill crying.
peter had money problem as well.
on the sixth storey, he saw a man carrying a box of office work, means he had just been retrenched.
to peter's surprise, he got retrenched two days ago.
on the third storey, he saw naggings from his neighbour's mum.
peter's been through these before.
he was thinking, "everyone's facing the same problem as me. they aren't running from it why should ....." BAM!!
he is dead

the storey above was told by my english teacher last year .

the moral of the storey is, what ever you face, there is some one out there facing it as well .
they could even be facing the same problem two times or ten times as you.
never give up on what you do, never give up on your life.

& am i deceiving myself or not?

when there is still a dim of light, this means hope .
im hugging onto this hope, to pray that what i had requested will happen .

when there's two person standing on a pole, one of them will eventually fall .
the one who falls normally will be the one who is either too full of himself or has a low self esteem of himself.

i will be the one standing there .
i pray, i wish, i hope,


too full of himself means he thinks he is the best and only the best .
low self esteem means he thinks he is the worst, confirm lose.

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you told me you're stress .
what kinda stress?

being irritated and irritating people are part and parcel of life that people face .
people spam you, people detest you, people look up to you, people love you.
which are deemed irritating to you?
well, i can say every one i mentioned.

pretty people have ugly problems too .
ugly people have ugly problems too .
it is just that, both of them face different problems.

pretty people get problems like people telling them off .
e.g. 'who the hell do you think you are', 'why are you so boastful?'
these are remarks passed down to several innocent chaps.

ugly people get problems like,
e.g 'you are ugly, go away', friendless .. yada yada.

things that you say or do actually catches every attention of the audience viewing you .
audience are the people in the background of your life or be it, strangers.

sitting on the floor of the mrt are being called gangsters .
tattoo are also being called gangsters.
worst still, listening to music like techno or trans are also called gangster.

true enough humans are stereotype, but some comments are better off kept in your heart.
it hurts people alot and i mean alot .

i've been through humiliation, pain and sorrow.
you may ask, who hasn't?

i remembered during public concert last year.
i was the emcee, played ensemble as well.
when i was the emcee, audience said that the way i spoke wasn't impactful enough.
they treated what i had said as rubbish .
during the emcee, i admit i cocked up, people start to look and stare. how would i feel?
during ensemble, the first comment i got was out of tune .
HA!
how hurt i was.

pain ,
i fell i fell and i fell .
i found the power in me.
okay, i fell from a high storey to the ground . [fractured my spine]
i fell into a hole to be exact.
there's only a ladder in front of me.
i was scared, i pulled myself up and climb and climb .
im not trying to boost, wow i have great strength.
im trying to say, if in great pain of fractured, i can climb up a ladder slowly to get myself out and walk home.
den when u have a fall back emotionally or physically you can still stand strong and go on.
brace up, stand strong and fight .

people hide themselves when trouble are arising .
for a matter to learn and defend, jump on the trouble, turn those boulders into stepping stones.
can you?

people tend to hide , i had seen enough .
humiliation, pain and sorrow are there to build you up .
how do muscle grows?
tear muscles, it build themsleves, to form tougher muscle so you wun tear it easily again .
so if you fall again, please be like your muscle, build yourself up and walk again.
knowing such situations, u will noe how to handle stuffs again.
dare to fall, dare to venture, dare to strive.
hiding in the room, standing at a corner not caring is not the solution . =/

im telling this to one person .
this person whom all of you know .
i hope he reads it too .
though i do not noe him in person .
not trying to spite you .

hope you can learn something here to help you get through your jouney of life.


enemies, warriors, assholes you may treat them as. love your enemies as i would say, know them well, then you 'll know how to retreat and attack them. retreating and blocking them away will do you no good. listen to what they have to say, rubbish or good comments let them say. they will get bored one day if you choose not to care. put this in a situation, you and a boy quarreling on the street, he scold you while you smile and do nth, he will get pissed. humans are like this.

i hope i had helped u in a way or other .
good luck

my birthday is over !
thanks for all who had wished me happy birthday .
i appreciated all your doings .

the girls, wappians, davincians, fencers, ZOO..
these are the groups ..

if i were to single everyone out there would be alot. ..

i really appreaciated all your doings ..
tho, surprises are not really surprising but i was touched.
some were because it was being blurted out.
XD

it was okay, im touched.
seriously .

i received presents, i dun dare to accept them, it wasnt cheap at all.
SHEEEEEEES.

nonetheless, i put them on my hands and said thank you.
:D

i love the people around me .
i loe the people i love .
tho not everyone knows my birthday, i still appreciate your prescence in my life.
WOOHOO ~
i have great friends XD

*dancing and singing*