HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

the start of the day is really happy for me .

1. shawn got into the nxt round.
2. yen sing came to celebrate my bdae with me
3. many smses of wishes

all these are enough for me. :D
my wishlist are just wishlist .
whether to happen or not, actually base on me.
i love day one of chapter 17. :D

i wished for happy life for everyone.

shake your body man, it's my birthday .
;p

today is the last page of chapter 16.
in this chapter, eventful and sorrow is in it.

people cried together, laugh together and even fought with each other.
a chapter that will never be forgotten.

from the start of it, i had already been loving this day,
slowly my days went terrible.
i hurt myself horribly, did my exams uncertainly and did badly.

slowly, the ugly were smurge.
when people who love me came up and said hi.
i was fascinated, and yarh, alot of sutffs happened.

then, i got sick of it, threw everything aside and went to ICA as part time.
the people there love me as well.
pamper me, threw dinner and lunches for the part timers.
i love the admin people there.
:D
get to know a great friend named mun jee.
we chatted with each other and told each other abt our live stories.
sounds like army life? yea, a bit..
after we left, he went into army.
and tts how we din really contact each other.

after ICA life, was holidays.
yada yada.

slowly, it's NP days already.
know what's fucked up, but dunno what's everything alright.
couldn't really cope as udual.
cois aint paying attention.
joined fencing .
get to know you.

and it carries on to chapter 17 of my life.

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to know if you are fortunate or not actually base on the people around you.
for me, i am fortunate yet not contented to state the fact.
i may be greedy but rest assure i am not materialistic.

jay chou is right in singapore now.
looking at the scenery i described on 29th july.
because the placed he is going today was the place i walked past as well.
jay chou, im not there to support but rock grand cathay please.
he is there to broadcast his new movie, Secret, script write by him, directed by him and of course he has a role in it. this movie was said to be a romance movie about this two coule. was suppose to be a secret but jay chou wanted to spread the love. :D

final tests and exams are running towards me already.
i have not studied a single word for any subjects.

i wanna thank the ZOO team, huiping, jie min, jocelyn, lyna.
they wanted to celebrate my birthday on sunday but jocelyn couldnt make it so the postponed to today. i didn't noe but i promised darren i wuld go look for him at westmall. so they went to vivo without me, i guess.
but it's okay, i felt warmth with their prescence in NP.
:D ZOO!!!

joining seazzles , $5 .
hope to team up with wappians.
a camp at sentosa from 24 - 26 aug.
means off two days in kumon.
sheees . i hope they wun exhaust themsleves.

tmr's my birthday .
im so excited about it .
:D

i live in the lion city .
a city with a kind of roar which scares enemies away,
a city with an action which drew us closer,
and a city with a clear image which draws tourist in.

i was walking from town to bras basar, from bras basar to raffles city shopping centre.
i was looking at the surround, i feel so loved.
the friends, the family, the city.
crowded in city link, i feel so singaporean.
although, i was complaining hot, smelly and sweaty but i still love the feeling.
if it was at the indoor stadium it wuld be better .

alright~
i went out with a handful of 6B students and bandits.
6B was dinner and movie.
bandits were crapping and supper.

wun really go into details,
because i cant possibly write what really happened.
because too many things happened and i dun wan to have a lengthy blog.

not much photos were taken so sorry, cant photo blog .
sheeeeeees.

the more i see you the more i want you .
the more i come in contact with you the more uneasy i go.
when i heard others whispering my names when you are standing beside me i feel weird.
i dunno if you are feeling the same as me but, ya ..
geeeees,
knowing that you stay far away actually pull me down .
but will not be beaten down that easily .
:D

hope we have the same feelings.
cheerio

OH,
incase you people din get a chance to see my new hair.
here you go .

Don't try me

what's over there?

hahaha, looked a bit kuku though . XD

Certain occasions spark off and ended with what you did not expect. Expect the unexpected has been in our mind all these while but who really cares about it? When things do not go the way you want it to be, disappointment, anger, jealousy, etc, will tend to surface. If you would ask me about it, I would go, "nah, it's a learning point for those people who experienced it.". Some said that I have a heart made out of stone, perhaps they are right and maybe they are wrong. If disappointment happens and you cry, so are you trying to show that you are beaten flat down? I think you should stand up strong, know what is wrong and improve on it. NEVER GIVE UP on what you like.

People around me have been expecting "goodness" from people they adore, like, love, cherish, etc. Yes, i do not deny i crave for such "goodness" but repeating such craveness within you wouldn't it hurt you even more? I don't understand humans.

You may achieve an achievement which you think you had work hard for it. You are the one in the picture, not the others. True? Yes! Being human with a right state of mind would start to comment. Most of the time, the comments would never be good. "WOW! Being a book licker like you can help you have promotion so swiftly.", "WOW~, you got the lowest score in prelims and in the end can get top in o levels. how much you bribe the markers ar?" and "Do you think he really loves you so much? Take a look of yourself in the miror, please?" Those three sentences i had formed above are just examples of what i think. People get jealous so easy that words that came out of their mouth are very hurtful. With such absurd phrases, you may quit you job, throw away your o level certificate and ditch your boy. okay, stop beating about the bush, what i am trying to derive is at BELIEVE IN YOUSELF ! You worked hard, people have the eyes to see.

Words shall not pull you down. expect the unexpected filthy words. Such words can even come out from your husbands, wives or the bestest best friend. People are out there trying to spike you, be bold, stand for your rights. Never let anything influences unless up to 10 people is trying to change you. Example, smoking, taking drugs, murdering, etc etc..

Know what is best for you.

i'm really really happy when i saw you.
i do not know if you feel the same as me but i hope you did.
you may not recognise me anymore, but i am glad that you wave hi back and shouted my name when i call you.
do i have such a unique voice that i use anonymous phone call to call people, the others would know it's me straight away?
or perhaps, i have mesmerising eyes which stunned people the moment they see me. XD

jerald is making it big hot this time.
first, he appeared mysteriously in seventeen, now he is in hey gorgeous and i did not catch if he won in NP or not.
but i hope so, he is my pretty GL and WAPPO will support you. :D

i heard this phrse in one of the songs i heard in radio,
how can love make make your heart smashed into pieces.
hahaha ,
to think it practically yes la, it can't.

WEEE!
i bought a new router from ms juanru.
i needed it badly as my brother and father had been nagging with no router.
sighh~

19/07/2007 was junhao's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
flunked my EEPS !

20/07/2007 - a miracle date.
miracle happened to me.
- like sharing of a good red bull with a pretty babe.
- accomplished my ELTECH practical, which is almost the same as EEPS but i failed EEPS.
- concert wasn't as expected
- went out with the girls
- missed the last train
- chit chat on the phone (which i dun usually do)
- and some others i donot want to say . =D

i love that date, im very very happy on this date.
because because.. hahha, shuyi, jiale, mabel, melissa, jinzhu, violet knows about this. hahaha.
:D:D

21/07/2007
went out to work early in the morning.
ECP trip was cancelled.
went to training and learnt pattern number 1 - 5.
hope i will remember them. :D

am i going through puberty now that i am going through such circumstances and mood swing that people during puberty go through.
i threw tantrum in class and walked straight out.
can you believe i did that?
i cant believe i did that, oh fuck..

i need, i need my current class mates to draw me back to what i was.
but apparently, they can't.
i only can be myself outside class like during band, tkd or fencing.
other than that, i don't know what to do.
i can't lose interest on studies now.
where is the support i got from my class all the time?
it's gone or i need time to interact with my class people?

i need time with myself, and guess what exam is coming.
and and, i failed one of my test which cost 40% of a module.
what shit is this?
where's my learning attitude?
it went down the drain.
what should i do?

my classmates don't know me.
so if i tell them i changed, they will go hee huh hor.
which i hate la..
shiit ..
i need constant studyingg..

public concert..
forte, stacato.
should i go?
im in a dilemma

now in class and the mood of the class is quiet with typing sounds on the laptop.
this is a lecture class, it means BORING!

these days have been out side just that my Internet is still down.
finding a new router for myself, hoping can get a linksys this time.
i heard it would be better and wun get overworked easily.
PHEW~

i dunno if i can get tix for PC .
i will try my bets to get tho .
if i cant get how arh .
sry to those ppl who has been trying to get tickets for me.
siann

today is the day i wuld like to reflect about my club .
my club in teck whye secondary.

past few trainings that i've went down, the moment i took training punishment will be given.
yupp, partly is the reason that they aint listening,
and partly it's my fault for not organising myself properly.
i chose to set them loose but they went wild, no choice use hard type to tie them back like they are used to.

one person strong enough stood up and told me off.
yes, a word like slave made me cry.
the instructor had put in so much and we only got a slave as a word?
oh well; this made me do a reflection back onto myself.
i cant draw to a conclusion therefore, i went to the head.
rest assure my lil one, no one knows who is the one who said that.
i admire that person alot, that person enforced me to be better in taking trainings.
that's what clubs suppose to be, transparent.
what u tink say, what i tink say.
if u cant think t's againstful den so be it.

hmmmm, what else happened?

sparring training has to be conducted again.
pattern training really have to be conducted.
*FAINTING* people is saying our club pattern from top notch to bottom.
chionging hard on my pattern at other clubs so i can go back to help.

one thing i think im not strong at is, shld be my tone.
too friendly like,
i have to differentiate that we are friends outside training and instructor, students in club.
brain washing myself about this..

i planned a training again.
hoping to implant it by myself.
placing all the good instructors words and combine them.
how i should train, what kind of a training.
it will be tired, but will improve alot on stamina as well as kicks.
one stone kills two birds.
why not i mean, i can give it a try.
if feedback is given, den i will change it again.
simple as that.

im trying my best to give the best .
JIALE, I OFFICIALLY WANT YOU TO LEAVE EVERYTHING AND GO STUDY !
sang-hyun might be taking over for a short while.
noel, norman, rongde, mabel and i may not have the time as exam is coming.
so how? see how's mr ho wants it to be.


im wondering about my games day proposal.
has it really stopped processing?
eleanor, if u pass by can drop some hints about the progress?
if nothing is going on give me a call.
i will conduct another meeting soon.
that one game is not enough, i have calculated the time.
because if we gonna have it after o lvls then it wuld best be in the morning. :D
more time. :D


oh ya, impt point noted by the people.
- don is different in training and outside
- don is fierce when he is angry
- don wants us to be disciplined in training
- don is over kind during training
- don is worst than jiale
- don training is useless
- don training ok ok only
- don training sometimes tough, sometimes not
- don like that lorh

draw a conclusion out of the 9 points is.
don training is undescribable, unpredictable.
dun make him angry..
hahhaa, i tink zoe's hypothesis about don's barometer can extend one is wrong alrdy.
or is it i lazy to coach the club?
i just need a full day with the whole club present.
i love to take a class not a handful.
:(


that's the end of reflection and the bottom is the conclusion

be strict in tone during training, no friend-firned conversation. draw a line
after training, best friend type.
training as usual but change of strategies.
be transparent to club.
be patient with club cos im not there always.

shld be all. i love my club

internet is down these days .
and IS is boring .
shit ass .

wun be blogging for now.
:D
takkaire my readers

i had made sure that no one knows about me .
i am also disappointed that none cares about my welfare.
maybe some does or maybe all does.
just that they noe i will takkaire of myself?
sheeees.

i've done so little things about myself and i rarely open myself and people dare to say, i noe u well.
i dont even noe myself.
isnt this contradicting?

i also want the best out of myself.
but but.. what is the best?

tmr jogging early in the morning.
not gonna say much, i gotta slp .

my class is having war now .
childish can?

i dunno why but i having seriously SPELING problems.
my fingers not functioning to what i wannna say.
like the tag i replied se.
i guess become i just.
shiityy .
wad's happening?

im alright~
nth wrng.
saw jerald, cheryl teo , jerry , alexis , sheeren , yong kun , zi xin lately .
i also saw adora on action with touch rug.
missing the ppl again .

14th im free , 20th im free.
go back band to hlp?
or shld i sit in as audience?

these days im some ne with no manners.
talk like want to fight.
fuck and chee bye starts to come out.
siann .

change change.
im aint like this.
baddy me .

looking at the rainbow,
my heart sank, my mind raised.
"is there a need to feel that way?", i thought.
foolish, stupid, jealousy, anger were in the little head of mine.
at that point of time, i wasn't myself.
who was i?
i don't know.

run my dear ,
i don't feel like seeing you for the moment.
im cold, im sick, im shivering.
you ain't here.

im drowning ,
a drowning man is the easiest to save.
i will let you save me as i stretched my arms up high above the water.

but if you leave, will i ever get to see you again?
i don't want to regret, i dont't know how to trigger my actions.

:(

seeing people back to normal with their joyous mood is the greatest gift i had ever got.
i just love hearing heh heh heh, hee hee hee, haa haa haa around me.
these make me HIGH !!

i walked slowly to class knowing if im late or not i will still be marked as absent.
since i reached the school bus stop at 8.15 means im late and that lecturer will not give me any grace, what a let down.
so what if she is the head of debarment for IS, big deal?
head means can push students la.
siann,,

after school went for a swim .
wooohooo,
it's been a long time since i had jumped into the water.
i feel so shioked.
hahaha , can u imagine the feeling?
like doing something you longed doing and finally you did it.
ACCOMPLISHMENT ~!

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life has been tiring for me and im still accepting offers.
am i an idiot or what.
want to go referee course (TKD PPL WANNA GO? only black tip and abve)
want to go back band
want to go back tkd
want this want that but i got no time .
arghh, feel so ass about my time management.
not managing it well.
do up a timetable and sometimes the schedule will mix.
SHEEES.

dun be like me hor ,
learn from my mistakes and u guys do anything .
dun get as tired as me, not good for ur health.
urine is yellow, shit is hard/too soft.
all not good symtoms.
hahaha .

let me burn u.

went drinking yesterday.
now i noe why people love to drink.
im not in any dilemma den i need beer to swipe me.
just that, there's a fantasy in it.
maybe im too stress.
i gt a feeling i will go drinking again on the 15th july.
sheeeeees.

i've got a friend who ask if i am 100% like girls.
i dont know how to answer.
100% like girls.
den guys leh?
if i dun like guys how to make them my brothers/good friend?
im puzzled.

i finally see my xiao di .
he is still as fine .
he wants to go out and eat with me, but his mama dun allow.
den nvm la, he needs to go for tuition as well.
oh well ,

my sons are officially missing .
guess i will have to see them in the nxt tournament.

people want me to get a girlfriend.
but someone dun let me flirt.
no flirting how to get girl?
wahlao eh .
haha.

life has been great .
love the laughters .
still cant differentiate what's fucked up and everything's all right.

i miss the girls ,
my birthday is coming .
im looking forward to it .
waiting for some one to do foolish stuffs for me .
i want to smile whole heartedly on my birthday.
i dont want to laught whole heartedly .
there's a difference .

i just love the people in fencing .
they are talking things that i talk.
hahaha .
so im in a dilemma again. sheeeees.
violet teo, i think u cant hlp me this time.
so wishy washy.

lalalala. .

there's tonnes to blog today.
but im just gonna smoke through briefly.

firstly, was late for EL TECH again la.
then lesson lesson lesson, boring lesson until 5.
then happily walk off to canteen one to makan.
after that went to fencing, met my fencer from yr 1.

hahaha , they are a funny bunch.
good for them cos i am being shot.

after fencing joel went to KAP with me, violet, kenneth and violet's parents. and GWEN !!
he was shy, i can see.
but he managed to open his mouth to talk, thank god.
he din forget abt the public relation i was telling him.
haha, but the thing he spoke was uncle, aunty and SHOT KENNETH LEONG !!!
hahahahaha.
so damn funny.
he rock my world and i stone his world.
so no logic;;

done and went toxiang yun's place for 30mins to sing an awful birthday song.
hahaha
tt's it im home safe and sound/

here are the rules: so please do read the rules firsteach player of the game starts off by giving six weird things about themselves. people who get tagged next will have to write in a blog of their own six weird things about themselves as well as state the above rules clearly. at the very end, the chosen person will have to choose the 6 next people to be tagged and in turn do this thing.

6 weird things about miee
1. loves everyone
2. is a narcissist
3. over emotional
4. wanna be social worker
5. wishy washy
6. loves punching innocent fellows.

all the things montion above are not weird things.. i
t is normal.. haha
6 people to write in their blog
1. violet
2. xiang yun
3. jiale
4. gilyn
5. jingyin
6. mabel

----end of the game----------------------

okay i merely copy and paste everything.. shitty

my taste and the taste of most people aint the same.
what ever i said nice aint nice to people.
what ever i said aint nice, people said it's nice.
hahaha.
im some how being manipulated. oh well.

i din control myself.
i brush till i bleed again.
is there any food where you can strengthen your gums?
=/.

i need help.
i have to learn not to sleep late.
guess what, 2am in the morning.
and i have school at night.

i wonder how is he.
sighh, hope to see him on saturday.
cross fingers and hope.

hate to be emotional.
made another great friend.
hope to make another soon.
because i wanted to be his friend.

i call u a friend when i speak to you comfortably and i can exchange information about my life with you.
i call u a brother/son/sister(or any relationship like lebbit, sweetie), when i care for you like nobody business.
i call u a girlfriend/wife, when i want to hear your voice daily, touch and feel you, know you deep down without exchanging anything..

that's the difference.
i will be truthful to all.
i will never fake any information.
if i do, sorry.

happy badae xiang yun.
im stoning again.

what's love?
seriously, what's that?
is it something whereby, you see someone from afar and you take care of them.
is it something whereby, someone is close to you and you take care of them.
i dont know.

i found out something interesting about myself when i talked to rongde today.
janwin was not feeling well, i was thinking if i should pay him a visit.
while thinking of this, i was chatting with rongde on the way to the bus stop.
on the way, he suddenly shook me and say WAKE UP!.
haha, i woke up. and said, yarh, im okay.

why am i so concern abt someone not close to me?
for someone who dun even acknowledge me as a papa.
true enough that, i see them grow up.
from white to black and im still brown belt.
hahaha

is this the love that im talking about?
someone who i've been through things with..

another is even worst, i never know that he existed, but it's the fun that made me care for him.
hmm, can i stp being emotional? is it good or bad?
hmm, im still pondering over this.

the girls in my class as well, im teaching them care and concern, respect.
all not but only two.
told them, it's rude to do this and that.
told them i dun like vulgarities.
at least she still listens and said okay, no vulgarities.
i understand she nids time to change, so oh well.

love is wad then? after i gave examples...
another love is that, i dun care about that person at all.
but when something strucks then HOHOHO!, i will be damn worried.

haha, someone teach me love?

or is everything i mentioned above is love?

i suddenly thought of one,
is love something like you know someone so well that u noe her actions?
what she puts in her hair and what brand she uses?

hahaha, im crazy.

i miss xiao di and sons.
i miss wappo and davinci.

i want to see them soon.
they triggered my laughter.
they paused my problems.
i hope to see xiao di soon, i miss him so much.
he taught me stuffs and i help him in stuffs.
fair le la, but i still wanna see if he is fine.
cos he loves to be missing.
ass him.



LEO is so confident that who ever posses LEO qualities loves to camera whore.
how true is this, i love camera whoring.
LEO has great leadership skills and want to be at the top.
I want but i have another possession which is lazy.
Instead, i learnt to groom people instead of climbing myself.
LEADERS ROCKS!
EVERYONE IS ONE !!

She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her thumb
In the shape of an L on her forehead

today was not an ordinary day for me.
alot of stuffs happen just in a day.

morning went i went school, my heart was touched by two persons.
first one was, this guys went up the best. he was troubled, he could find any coins in his pocket and wallet. he's ez link card has no value left. he took a $10 out and asked for small change. i did not have so i said no. but this lady in front of him took out her wallet and asked if he needed coins. don't you think that lady down there is good enough to give coins? frugal singaporeans? i dont think so.

second thing also happened on the bus,
an old uncle came up the bus.
this different lady stood up and gave up her seat.
i was like HELLO, where has all the man go to?
okay, im a man, i did not stand because i was at the window seat, cant really come out as bus was squeezy.

that's it in bus.
sch was boring as usual.

sweep all the rubbish away to when i reached home.
i wanted a swim badly,
i jio people for a swim and none are free.
so i decided to go myself.
so sucky, i forgot that the swimming complex in CCK actually closes on monday for service.
SHEEES, then took bus home.

went to woodlands to meet mabel for mosque burgur.
as usual, i ate nuggets with mustard and milk tea.
WOOOHOO, it tasted to nice.
suddenly, rongde msged mabel and i to check where we were.
ahahaha, both of us were like, WHERE IS HE?
how come he knows we are together and send us the same sms.
we thought he was that bo liao.
so we finished our meal and walked out, mabel as usual, being funny stick her head out to look for rongde. hahaha.
to our surpirse, he is at BUGIS la.
hahah
den we waited for him and ate gelera.
the ice cream waffle is undescribable.

and i went home satisfied.
tmr i am going to celebrate my brother's birthday and den to meet my sons.
:D

a statement was passed by a little girl named gilyn, "your blog very emo."
if she could be the one to tell me this, i believe many readers will feel that too.
therefore, i decided to explain some of the details.

the past few days i have been emo-ing.
thinking about what had happened and why it happened.
i myself feel that in this way, i can build myself up and grow up more.
in the sense whereby i know how to handle the situation better.
my post isn't emo all the time, just that i also want to be true to myself and my readers.
they should know how i feel, and if possible they will ring me up and advice me.
i am not any brain man who can think of a solution in one click.
i need to reminise and take advice from others.
advice are to be heard, to follow or not is your problem

gilyn, have i somehow answered why my blog was emo?


skipped that ,
actually today i hugged my hopes and went down to bukit timah and hope to see my sons there.
too bad i went down, they were not there so well..
when we first reached there, we were assigned jobs.
we were like AWW!!
hahahaha, so no choice continue to do our job nice and sweet.

the sparring matches were alot nicer than the one in kampong ubi.
(duh~ senior matches ma)
ppl are improving and i am not ..
ppl like wan sin , edwin loke, improving like shit la.
and im improving like urine.
ASS!!

i can improve, and i will.

today was a tiring day.
fulfilling promises are hardcore man.

firstly, kumon, morning rush there and mark stuffs and den go hme.
phew,

secondly, i have to rush down to mr kuik that side to train.
cos i told him ppl are goin dwn.
so if not going down to zhenghua tt side, go dwn for 413 still acceptable i guess.
at least i went down to train.
i finally remembered teger 7.
phew~

after that fulfil last promise.
chiong dwn to NP to be NP concert band usher.
wow~ i was assigned to the VIP entrance and car park attendance.
it was wee fun, knowing the principal.
talking to him, shaking hands with him.
after all these, i went to listen to NPCB.
ohh my, they improve quite a bit.
although the oboe player abit off. but he will improve.

im tired.
tmr is tkd tournament den chiong dwn to ECP for ah ting gugu birthday.
shiet..
rush hour again.