wow.. today i'd twisted my toe and guess wad i brought joy to everyone.
this is good.
as laughter is still the best medicine. haha.

was pretty fed up with band and tkd.
band was esp my sect.
feel like killing them out of a sudden.

tkd.. their kicking...
oh my.. nvm they still sec 1..

CO was pleasing enuff.
i hope their conflict will stp.
although im nt any co guy.
but due to SYF i gotta think harmony and discipline?
band this goes to u.
the person who is holding the baton/standing in front of u have the say!!

went to sushi tei.
wow! their food still the best.
i dunno hw much hab i eaten out of my aunty.
but thanks anyway!!


wow. look at the dog. a human size dogg...

haha. i so love this beautiful cake

that dog is seriosuly so humongous

happy birthday to u

cheese.....


will i go towards what i want or will i go towards what is happening in front of me?
im puzzled again, one matter struck and i am like this.
i dunno wad had happenedto me, sry i noe who ever are beside are my venting machine.
i din mean to.

what i want did not come that easily and it's becasue of hard work i don't bear to let go.
i have been fighting to get what i want, i will want to get more. can i be greedy?
wahaha.

firstly, i wish to apologise to my class for not being able to make it for the outing as i missed that the date actually changes from 31st March to 1st April. I even pushed away several outings because of you guys, but i can't push away this camp as it has limited vacancies in this camp and i have to pay a sum of fees if i did not go for the camp. SO SORRY !

secondly, these days hasnt been free as i have to go for meeting to make sure that the new working new will be up nicely this coming april.

lastly, sports camp will be coming on this april fools and i hope np will not fool me. haha. need to get ready alot of stuffs especially swimming trunks. have not got one yet .

because of a moment of sensation, you throw your life away. worth it? no
because of a moment of anger, you turn you friends away. worth it? no
because of a mild mistake, you face a big consequence. worth it? no

sometimes it is that one moment which causes your life and death. every moment, every second that you do in your life, you have to think twice. every decision that you had made will bring you some where, be it you like it or not.

life is never a straight line. it is a road with bumps, humps, son of a gun and many obstacles. everyday we pray and hope that each obstacles will not grow like a cancer cell.

let's say life is like pac-man. you will be moving and moving, until you see a ghost figure and you doge it. at the same time, the ghost will come chasing after you. at each and every level you must deal with the ghost in a different way. can you do it? or are you waiting for the ghost to bring you to the cell?

god at the same time has placed miracles at every corner that the ghost has driven you to. with that miracle you can eat the ghost and be GHOST BUSTERS!! when you feel really helpless, brace your self and walk on and i believe the person who is beside us will help us. with his help you will find that anything is possible.

i am waiting for that miracle to come. i need that miracle some how. i hope something will hit her mind and then she will wake up. although she is young, i believe her brain can think a lot. i need this miracle to help her and me. will it happen. i know it will, let time do the job.

after so long i finally hear my stomach growling.
it's abit sicko though but i just love the feeling.
this shows i'm still a human, yea!

tomorrow will be the day i'm going to NP to buy my laptop and register for the several camps they organised. i am joining the sports camp as well as the the hopnite fever? haha. the sports camp is i want to join but the hopnite fever since lezbo wants to go let's go with her, in case she got lost or cant find any mates to mingle with and therefore couldn't lingle at the party. i hope can ask ppl from other school to join as well. haha.
weeeeeee!

i'm alone at home and i'm feeling high because of the growl.
oooolala.

has anyone felt the feeling of being heart broken.
when, your heart sank all the way down feeling heavy?
i never and i want to know how it feels.

i read novels and listened to many different experiences i still couldn't catch how it feels. disappointing.
it's okay, it will never be good to know / have such a feeling.

currently, i have another new student, dennis, he is actually very intelligent just that he hates using his brain to think. what's aspire me to teach him further is his determination to learn and willingly to ask question. i know my explation isn't very clear but i truly hope he understands. doing is always not a problem, it is the teaching part which kills me.

attention seekers are drawing near to me. it's okay i know i can manage them pretty well. i hope they will not give me much trouble. i will give my full attention to them. not full but most. i'm going to have a splitting headache in teaching people how to play a trombone correctly and how to kick properly in order not to hurt oneself. sigh~

suddenly, she sms me. not only her but hers. no such words but two girls i admire came out of a suddenly. going to have an heart attack soon.

just love myself, i'm a superman

busted.
i'm tired out.
i'm out on the court today, not to fight but to play badminton.
after so long without using much of my hand's muscle, i feel that it is great yet tiring.
=)

does my blog need to load verey long before entering?

i nid a new change, a new feel.
going into a new part of life.
although loving everyone the same.

remember i added the list of my status.
one more.
eilieen yap --> my nu er.


i got unsolved / untold problem.
i only tell this to one person. i hope he can catch the hint tt it is a prob.

Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.

And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.

The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.

The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,

"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day."

"My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."

She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.

Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.

He always liked to do things early, way before the time.

Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.

Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.

She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.

While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.

With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.

Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,

The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.

Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.

The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,

Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"

The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know."

"The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance."

"Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,

And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.

There also is another thing, that I think you should know,

He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago."

"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here,

That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.

Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.

Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,

I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."

"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.

For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.

The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.

I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."

"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.

I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.

I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.

That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."

"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,

That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.

I have always loved you and I know I always will.

But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."

"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.

I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.

The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,

When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock."

"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.

But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,

To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,

And place the roses where we are, together once again."

yesterday was chee hou's brthday.
i did not manage to post on time so happy belated.

lately, has been updating myself with my few kids.
some of them have problems in relationships, homework and even growing up problems.
i did not go through much but i hope what ever i said will help some how.

jian hui called me to say that he wants friday weekly.
as he thinks that since it is during the holidays the school will not provide the newspaper.
i went around to buzz, ntuc and it is not available anymore.
i was so depress.
you can ask violet, i'm like. so guilty lo. promise this poor boy that i would buy for him.
but my lucky lezbo brought me luck.
i sent her home and this time round i walked the other way home.
i went into the 711 and found the paper.
i so love that 711.

now, every tuesday and friday i will have a date with my dear friend. shunli.
our plan is to go jogging from 8 - 10.
be sure to catch two shuai ge jogging.
dun miss us. haha.
morning exercise will be good for us. =)

i am eating my duck meat now.
sHh

if breakfast and lunch adds up equal to brunch.
then i guess i am dinpering now.
duh`

lives have been unstable lately.
having to know that my days at ICA are numbered, the feel just isn't right.
what can i do as i'm just a temporary CSO?
who doesn't love to stay at such a lovely place?
with people who love you, care for you almost every single minute.
i will never forget the day when o levels are out.
Team Delta was the one on shift.
everyone was calling out good luck to you .
call us when you received your result.
this kind of feeling is undescribable, i guess.
it's the kind of love that's is shared among the people.
even though the others group "alpha, bravo and charlie"they aren't on shift, when we came back they start asking how's your result. and their face were so anxious. if you din do well, they will shower words of parents upon you. athough it is naggy, but it is how they show their care, through a colleague or even strangers.

all these will churn not to be memories again.
ICA may be waiting for us to join them, but to think of it, if i want them to post me to tuas it will be another problem. there's where my memories is, there's where i want to go back. even though we will still be colleague if i'm at the other side.

i had met great people there.
working there, with all your emotions are the best.
you meet all kinds of singaporeans.
note. ICA only allows singaporean, no foreigners are allows to work inside.


one more thing,,
i miss school lives as well.
with all my brothers / sisters / gays / lesbians / comrades /fighters / enemies.
the way we rock up the school is spectacular.
the best of the worst as well as the best of the best.
TWSS sec 4 06 .. the best of the results , the worst of the attitude . [in the nw sch only]
so loved,


i felt so in the neither world.
i felt so, when you are in city A i'm at city B.
why like that arh.
why?

is not the neglecton that i'd found, it's the useless that i felt.
never felt so useless.
but for one thing for sure i know, is that i am happy as day passes.
even when u are sad it doesnt change anything

all my let's fish out all my " relations" and so i can add in some.

brother/boyfriend/husband --> jian hui
sister --> shuyi, li mei, theresa
lezbo --> violet
stupid --> shunli
wives --> hui ping, jiale, geraldine, mabel
ex wives --> izzah, xiang yun, eunice
girlfriend --> soh eng
honey --> grace
lebbit --> shuoke
sweetie --> joan
ON gays --> ron (provided he remembers)
trombone stead --> jinzhu
mum --> hazirah
grandma --> khairiah
scandal --> saliza
uncle --> akid
self proclaim grandpa --> asyraf
my next door canal neighbour/crazy tornadoes --> sarah
my security guard --> juanru
my deer --> jason
owner --> yan ling
care taker [i must pay him to takkaire of me] --> yu ting

shld be like this only.
actually wanted to add friends group.
haha. later miss one out den i mati.

**new**
cornflake --> wei xiang
gorrilla/xing xing --> jia xin

second mock grading is out .
it was spectacular, everyone improved.
i hope they will improved more and then go for grading on the 23rd march.

my dear sec ones will always be my dear.
the first batch that i take, i will have to groom them up.
i dun wan them to be my first and last batch, they better excel for me.

i dunno what i want already.
you listen to me and be independent,
and now over here i am regretting and start reminisce on your rely day by day.
good that you have turned independent.
carry on.
your future is bright my dear boy.
no matter what you are always my boyfriend.
no, my husband. haha.

wasnt very pleasant today. everything started when i go to tkd.

i was hlpin band at first. brining up their instruments, stand and files. they were stuck outside the hall as the malay and chinese dancer do not really like CO / band to be there as they couldn't hear the own music. fair enough, syf is coming and every CCA wants to be in it's best form.

as i was saying, their instrument was kept outside. my tkd boy went to touch our timpani. wad can i do but to punish him. firstly, during tkd he is not allowed to communicate with the others. in short, cannot wander around without permission. secondly, i am a band member and you expect me to close on eye? dream on. forget it and move on...

today, i went back to take mock grading and i can tell you not all the sec one can do it. most of them are trying to smoke me through? for what? tell me? end up during grading all dunno how. den after grading all know how to do tha pattern? which part of my ass are you trying to lie pass?

did a quick training, brushed up their pattern.and off they go. friday another turn. jiale's not there. HELP ME !!!

what if one side of me ask me to go left while the other side wants me to go right.
this kind of mixture feeling is so undescribable.

i decided to go left.
which will make you happier.
as for me i will go the rough way and make myself tougher.

i will be missing for the time being.
will be back to be one better.

can i hug you?
cuddly you.