my perfection has gone down the drain again .
i failed to understadn my friend again .
i was being lied again.
though you think that i doesnt care, i'm feeling so shattered.
if you had never like it in the first place why lie to me?
my perfection is different from the othersm i guess my perfection can never come.
what ever i deemed nice it's seem so unnice to many.

many told me. if you like it can already, do not care what the other think.
now the problem is that, it is suppose to be a gift.
in the first place you said it is nice.
BULLSHIT !

today wasn't very lucky.
i dropped my phone.
get to know you never like that.
what else?

let me get my feeling back.

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boy arh,
promise me not to stress yourself so much .
i dunno what have i done today.
i hate to see u sign.
i hate to hear u sign.
but for one thing i'm glad that is we can be straight forward to each other. =)

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i wish i can dance in the rain
be part of the shine.
let the ground be my bed and the sky my blanket.


other than loving my family, my jian hui .
i still lack one partner.
can you come out soon?
i'm waiting.
let us meet at 7 yue chu 7

okay.
after so long in tuas my service shld have stopped today but due to mrs chiam and riduan long MC i got to stay for another 2 more weeks. =)

after so long of searching and finding, i finally found the food that i want to eat.
will u buy for me ?

lately, i'm in my lowest boiling point.
which eventually means i'm easily boiled. yeah!
there's not a compliment to myself anyway.
i do not like it but what the hell can i do?
i'm stuck literally.
haha.

i love tuas day by day.
and i can tell you, learning that i have to go soon it sucks.
if on my last day, i make sure that i will do my best.
by spending all the time i could in the records office, recording rm, library, lounge, pantry, admin office, 306, 311, bikes, and of course tuas !

i miss u

yyt happy birthday..

yu ting yu ting. happy birthday at the veh last min. =)

Chinese New Year has arrive.
It will be a break for me.
A break from a long tiredness.
I'm tired not physically though.

i need to catch a slp.
according to my past experience if i have such a feeling this means i gonna provoke someone soon
i sincerely hope it will not happen.
or rather happen to my love ones.
if i provoke things may go drastically wrong and hurray i can jump down the building, again.


my head is haywired.
no point askng me why.
i wun ans, unless u are xiao di/girlfriend.
[but if i accidentally tell you or when u ask i tell u, i dunno wad to say la. haha. actually it depends on my mood]
i'm bais, too bad.

if i fall once more, will you be down there helping me.
or up there looking down and laugh at me?
who will be the one catching me?

i noe chinese new year is here i shant say such stuffs.
but all these are bottling me.
save me pls..

on the outside i may seem i do not care
frm the inside i do.
frm the outside i do not care because i myself noe, wadever i say will not come to the sense of the them.
i rather save my saliva.
but watching them quarreling like that, it hurts a lot.
i can't say much but to watch.
supposingly a happy day turned to a rowdy day. bullshit.

xiao di, i'm falling. Catch me, will you?
today is CNY first day and i'm getting crap.
hope it will not affect the rest of the year.

happy new year pull your ear has been this year's slang for me.
so have you pulled your ear?
i'd pulled mine, though.

where's my girl.
i'm still searching, will i find any?

see? xiang yun and violet have had their chopper on their hands already. i better be on guard.

Vanlentine day was great.
i spent it with someone i love but that person wasnt my girlfriend.
i love the person so much so that i can now give the person a hug.
i love that person so as a sibling kind of love.
i feel lucky to have that person in my world of puzzle.

chinese new year is coming.
my house is up with decorations again.
this year must be better than last year.
pig new is a time to have small lil kids.
pig year people are actually very clever.
just like bryan wong, we wins the home decor most of the time as he is artistic and lever
lee kuan yew is also born in the year of pig.
so this year his age will be 12 24 36 48 60 72 84..
84 years old CONGRATUTLATIONS TO HIM.

lalala. i look forward to chinese new year although i do not really have the right mood there.
weeeeeeeeeeee............
this yr the ang pao money is to hlp me in my studies in poly. =)

everything that deemed irritating will be removed.

oh my gosh.
valentines tomorrow and i've yet to find a girl friend.
who wants to be my date?

haha .

i'm so glad for ppl arnd me who had made the correct choice of their life and be happy.
i've been thru friendsters profile, blogs and found some fortunate people who actually left their previous best friends and now be with their new best friends. getting happier and such, i can tell you i am truly happier to see that as well.

perhaps i should have that kind of life as well, or rather, can i do that?
first on the list shuyi, xiang yun, violet, will come with a chooper and chase me down CCK road.
haha. am i exagerating or wad?
secondly, how would i bear to leave all my precious behind? only ppl will leave me behind lorh. hha.
lastly, if i just go liddat, who will hlp me pick my litter arh?? volunteer plsss....

haha. i'm jealous .
everyone can go happy and play with their best friends / bro.

my result wasnt pleasant for me although many people are satisfied if they have my result.
i have faced my result and ya.

eng -b3
math - b3 expected at least A2
amath - b4 expected at least b3
ch - c5 expected at least b4
dnt - c5 expected at least A2
chi - b3
phy - c6
chem - c6 expected at least c5

see lousy lousy..
hope i can go to the course i want and study hard..
duncare if i am in a good course or not la
arghh,,

today was absoulte tv maniac.
channel u channel 5.
keep switching to and fro.
for channel 5 i want singapore to win
and for channel is 陈世维。
and of course both i supported, won !!
i was on cloud nine. haha.

"do i noe you" this sentence flew pass me when i met a friend, who is just a primary schoolmate, a few days ago. i was shocked that she had forgotten me and i had to flash back for her. it was fun remembering those memories but as i say all these i actually misses my primary school friends.

i miss weini and jiawen the most. almost everytime we will go back from school together. then we will visit lot one with our bulky bag and eat the japanese balls and bubble tea. i will never forget jia wen who always prompt the aunty, "aunty啊。帮我家多一点那个菜。很好吃类。" of course that aunty gave it to her as we were just primary six. as for me, i will be like uncle, more pearls please. as for weini she's just trying to be neutral. =X.

after after long, eating and chatting. weini would run and catch the MRT, as for jia wen and i sometimes i will either send her home or we will go separate ways. and most of the time was that we go separate ways.

weini and i saw each other most of the time after o levels. as for jia wen i hardly see her and omgg. i wish that we could go out together again. i miss the days. they were my outside school friends because we would rant all the way till home. haha. i miss the days.

were those the days and fulls top. i dun tink so. i wan to go out with them.
haha . can i?

aint you guys good enough to show what's right and wrong for me. perhaps it's wrong of me throwing tantrums around aimlessly. it may be wrong for me to bottle up everything . what else can i do? i had enough of your actions and i had told you but you just did not care, what else can i possibly do?

firstly, happy birthday to violet.

today wasnt a very good day before and after work. before work was becauwse i have to rush from here to there just to prevent from being late. phew~ i wasnt late though. after work, there's my next paragraph gonna come.

have you ever feel that, when you need help urgently regardless needing people to help you carry stuffs, call and ask a question and etc, it just seems that no one is there. just right before this, a staff told me. DON ar, you are just here being a temporary staff and i can tell you, most of the people here give you a "special pass" by granting allowance of this and that. but when you actually come to the "real" world you wll find that 99.99% of the people you are working with are actually selfish. just for example, boarding a staff's bus everyone will be rushing up and if there is no space for you then sorry either stand or go off. thinking about it, it's true.

then it some how linked to me that, what's fucked up and everything's alright? when you got fucked up everyone starts to listen to you not wanting you to be angry. when they think everything is alright it is still not alright, that fucked up person is still fucked up and start throwing mud at you or stabbing you with a knife. isnt the situation still as fucked up as before? hmm.. fucked.

many told me, dun care this person dun care that person. deep down you hate the person and i jolly well say it loud here that the more you hate that person the more you will love that person. why?
the person you hate is also the person you care most. why must you care about that person's action? why must you care about that person's action so closely that you can spot the mistake anytime and stab him real hard. once this person leaves the office, you will get bored and start to miss stabbing that person. you are thinking of him all the time, get that off you and starting loving him. in this way u wun get int him so much. love your enemies and understand them then u will be able to control them.

alright, can i just confirm that 9th february is the o level result? everywhere i go everywhere i turn i hear that. haha. quite / very excited about it. but will it be that date? i'm planning to get off on that day to visit my CCAs. wahaha. if it's that day then i happy liao lorh.