I was walking home from Xiang Yun's house at 2.30am. When I was walking home, thoughts flow through my mind. For many stuffs, I chose not to listen while people are willing to tell me. It's like, he wanted to tell me his problems but I said I didn't want to because you told two people already. For some stuffs, the more is not the merrier.

Much as I want to, I never thought of going back. I know it would be useless going back when everything is not back at it's original places. I just simple love the moments back then and I love the character too much that I cannot bear to leave it alone. Time would not change my feelings for a character. Just like your favourite pillow, when you throw it away you cannot sleep well. Something like that, I suppose. But since I cannot hug it anymore, let the feelings be there. It's the heart anyway. Right, Mina(From the doll master) ?

Wishing and Hopin' haha. Who has this song? can send? It is an OST from my best friend wedding.

*FAINT* A pretty girl came towards me and smile. I was shocked and I thought she was some primary school friend that I have forgotten or what but she was a total stranger. She smiled politely into my eyes, and asked what time it was. I took out my phone to check the time and I accidentally dropped it. She picked it up for me and at the mean time glanced at the time. She said thank you and walked off. I'm dazzled by her smile. Can any girls that I know give me a smile like that?

Let me describe her. When she smiled, her cheek rose it wasn't red nor pink just a simple girl with no make up. Her eye brow were thin, her eyes were brown - black(no contact lens) and clear, she has double eye lid, her hair was brown - black as well. Her skin looks fair, yet tanned not very. Her teeth were straight with braces on it, mouth was small. No pimple on the face, a little dimple on both cheek.

At that time, her hair was let down. It's kinda wavy. Everything rose, I got high as well as a bit horny. HAHA. I fell totally in love with her. Can I once again go to every house in Singapore and look for her. She's like my cinderella.

Her appearance struck me hard. Why didn't she key in her number when she return me my phone. I have the urge to grab her and be mine. Fate brought us together once, will there be twice and thrice? *Faint*

It's like if you have a problem go ahead and solve it, never wait till the end of the day and start moaning and groaing and said I should have solved it in the first place. Do you think that it is a little too late?

Any Tom, Dick and Harry would tell you this, "Solve it, just go ahead and solve." but which Jane, Sarah and Mary would go ahead and follow their advices? Advises are not really meant to be followed, they are meant to be heard and allow the others to think.

I told you to walk this path, yet you chose to walk another. At the end of the day, it is you who still think that the path you chose is the best, Then go ahead, I cannot say much as if you follow my route and you feel uncomfortable, then I am in the wrong.

Who is not afraid of some things? It is the power of love which eventually makes the world goes round. It is love which makes people unable to concentrate; live. I helped you thus far, you wanted to let go. I cannot do anything but to tell you this. She doesn't like you, but if you can touch her is good, you chose to leave so I cannot say anything.

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Hey, baby, I see you looking over here, baby
Are you gonna keep looking, or get up & talk to me
Do what you wanna do


Baby seems like everywhere I go
I see you, from your eyes, your smile
It's like I breathe you, helplessy I reminisce
Don't want to compare nobody to you
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

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While blogging, I heard two songs. Public Affair from Jessica SImpson and Deja Vu. I quoted some phrase which i think can project myself. I usually, used my blog to project myself, but this time I can't. Nothing suits my feelings nowadays. So i created or used ugly blogs out of ugly blogs. SORRY if it is a sore eye.

It's just any other good old days while people get together sit down and laugh.
Though it was different people this time and the feeling is like 2 times the difference but you still get the pleasure out of it.
To forget is a diffciult process where many have to learn.
Situations are always there to pop in front of you like a balloon and you need to clear your mind in order to get rid of the sudden deaf.
Now the question comes back, can you do it or rather you want to do it or not?
Do you want the fear to remain unnoticed in you, yourself.

I'm not used to my life, now. I am trying to get used to it. I am getting it, it's not 100% but at least a 50%. I do not want to get totally used to this because I know there would bound to be changes soon due to studying. =)

Was scanning through the photos as I've added new phto of the ar.zi.mm.ar.an family photos.

First I looked through the band photos and seriously those were the days I could not forget. During the camp, disputes, fun, laughter all came out. I won't forget that day was Darryl's birthday and in my whole secondary school likfe I first blasted. =) sorry.

Then I saw the photos during the world cup haha. That day the match was boring. Junhao, took my phone and took me slpin, shunli slpin and junhao still can tahan. haha. hilarious. It's like a boring match also want to tahan? haha. u win larh. wahaha.

Next. Fiesta 2006. From there I can see I am totally different from my normal self. waahaha. Was surprised actually. Nonetheless, there's fun playing for everyone and emceeing. wahaha. what's more before that i was having probs with the conductor. but lucky i'm like a fwen with him now =)

thirdly, OBS. raleigh. haha. misses.

next. haha. nite training. and we were taking photo. dun tell rongde. heeees.

lastly, be yourself day !!!!!!!!!!!!! everyone was superb.

5 no fail ways to tell if she's the one .

1. the idea of losing her shoud be more frightening to you than losing your freedom.
2. you care about her details of her day - day life. and u are not tired of it.
3. make sure she loves your before photo rather than the after you may never acheive.
1. men want to be appreciated for who they are, not who women want them to be.
4. you would not even cringe when bringing her to your kin
5. you argue alot and get to no where? bring her to bed if you want, but don't committ (sex), and don't bother arguing with her.

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the guy list. last second thoughts 29 things you're goin to regret while having your first heart attack.

1. the power-blue tux you insisted on wearing to your secondary school prom. Really, it foreshadowed so much, didn't it?
2. YOUR 743- DAY STRING - NOW UNDER CNSIDERATION BY THE GUINNESS BOOK OF WORLD RECORD - OF VOWING TO GO TO THE GYM WITHOUT ONCE, IN FACT, ACTUALY GOING TO THE GYM.
3. that nasty little White Castle(king) habit.
   
4. THE FACT THAT, OF 51229 HOURS YOU'VE WORKED SINCE UNIVERSITY, NOT ONE OF THEM WAS FOR YOURSELF.
5. the fact that, of 37298 thoughts you've had so far this week, all but four were about yourself.
6. 1990
7. ACTUALLY, LARGE CHUNKS OF 1991 AS WELL, EXCLUDING THE THREE DAYS YOU SPENT IN THE COMMUNITY PROGRAMME "GIVING SOMETHING BACK" AND THE SIX-WEEK FLING WITH HOPE, THE HEAVYSET OBOIST, WHO PROVED TO YOU THERE IS INDEED LIFE ON OTHER PLANETS.
8. 1992
9. the screaming match you had with you mom about the colours of the house, which you're lying on it - isn't as bad as you thought.
10. ALL THE SCRAMING MATCHES WITH YOUR MOM, WHO - NOW THAT YOU THINK ABOUT IT- ISN'T NEARLY AS BAD AS YOU THOUGHT.
11. the fact that you think that's a compliment.
12. SPEAKING OF POWER OUTAGES: YOUR FAILURE TO RECHARGE YOUR CELL PHONE, WHICH REALLY WOULD BE USEFUL AT A MOMENT LIKE THIS. HEY, CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?
13. aspirin. where's the damn aspirin
14. GROWLING AT KIDS, THE SCREAMING WAS NECESSARY; NOT THE GROWLING.
15. the call you never got around to making your life insurance guy
16. THE CALL YOU DID GET AROUND TO MAKING TO YOUR DOCTOR: "YEAH, SO TODAY TURNS OUT TO BE BAD FOR ME, DOC. BUT CAN I CALL YOU BACK TO RESCHEDULE?"
17. all the promises you didn't keep
18. ALL THE PEOPLE YOU DIDN'T FORGIVE.
19. all the nights you didn't tunk your kids into bed
20. THE THREE MONTHS PHASE, CRICA 1998, IN WHICH YOU ATTEMPTED TO NICKNAME YOURSELF 'BIG DAWG'
21. you failure to recognise earlier that your fwen jack was probably the single biggest asshole god ever placed on the face on Earth
22. YOUR FAILURE TO RECOGNISE EARLIER THAT YOUR EX-FRIEND TIM WAS NOT NEARLY THE ASSHOLE JACK MADE YOU TINK HE WAS
23. you never really knew what to say at funerals, did you?
24. YOUR INSISTENCE, NOT 20 MINUTES AGO, THAT ÏT'S JUST A LITTLE INDIGESTION. TWO SWIGS OF MYLANTA AND I'M FINE"
25. you never told you father you love him.
26. YOU NEVER TOLD YOUR BROTHER YOU LOVED HIM..
27. you did, oddly, tell every dog you own that you loved him. what was that about?
28. THE 69888 HOURS YOU SPENT WATCHING TV. IN RETROSPECT, THERE WASNT QUITE AS MUCH TIME AS YOU THOUGHT, WAS THERE, CHEIF?
29. that instead of somethingg memorable, your last words were, ïtwouldn't be a heart attack..."
    

shuoke !!!
I miss you !
Can I book you this Christmas?
Can I book all the people?
Just open a BBQ somewhere and invite everyone.
Oh my gosh.

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Sad stuffs appear again but I am so happy . ha!
No doubt when sad stuffs come I'm sad.
But happy stuffs do come.
Sad stuff only like one thing versus so many happy stuffs.
How can neglect people behind me,
Like SHUYI. haha.
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let u guess .

TLV and ILV.
JLD is a bullshit.
DLV is the truth.
VLD is also the truth.
ILD is the best.
wahahahahahha.

YOU LOSE !
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090906.
i fell in love totally.

woooohoooooooo.....

It's like I gonna sand off and respray due to drips and grains.
WAHAHAHa.
I'm so so happy now and I can tell you. raH!!!

I'm tired already. No doubt D&T should have been finished long time ago but I can't finish. None is hlping me and I'm seeking hlp myself. Haha. Isn't that should be the way?

Now is 1.06 and I cant do much but dnt dnt and talk to her. wahaha.
=)

wahahhaa. since tomorrow gonna be english let me use some non-standard english or my blog.

starting of ignoring.
Basically I do not feel any good in it, as you are the one whom I look upon. Maybe or perhaps you want to try lonesome which I'm not really sure of. Not even a hi when I step in front of you. HA! If everything goes back to because of what I said then sorry, I think I'm not in any wrong this time. I'm waiting for you to voice out, I've done my piece. Of course I pulled several stuffs out just to provoke but I'm pretty sure that you know why did I do that.

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Prelims are strolling in one by one and I do not know how and what to do already. Study would be too late, do not study equals to no hope to pass. Help me.

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abit dark.
no mre layers.
playing slope now. muahaha.

happy birthday TAN YEN SING !!

SWEET 16

090906

our date nv forgotten

Headache after headache.
I do not need any attention; just want to know that you are still alive and not dead.

Families are never forgotten but always neglected .
They are always there for you, but why do you put them aside?
Talk to them, nurture them let them know what you are doing.
It will not hinder them, at least they know how are you doing and what are you doing.

Just felt that I'm treated like a family to many, as when sad things come you will appear.
It's okay, at least I know that I am not forgotten yet neglected some how.

At least I understood this concept la
So what you do not come my blog that often, so what you do not phone and sms me often.
At least someone report to me and say you are fine, I would grin/smirk.

I do not know what you are thinking about so forget about you knowing what I am thinking.
Perhaps you would know what is my next move but you would never know if I am going to trigger.

i love you/

Ìf destroying and killing is part of everything day life, why would I still be here?

If stealing an item and trying to run away from it is a way, I would be runing away from many things.

Who's not puzzled in their lives?

Who's not stuck at certain point and need some one to guide?

Who will always be going in a smooth trail where there would be no stumbling stone falling upon you?

Who would actually use the stumbling stone as stepping stones to help them gain knowledge?

You gain some thing and eventually you would lose something.

Crying may be short term, you may even forget about the matter.

You will never go about saying, my friend abcde scolded me a bitch the other time.

BUT NEVER GIVE UP !!

Why give up? Giving up a chance of fortune? Fortune, Money? fame? NAH~ I simply think fortune are things like friendships.

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VIOLET. I'm tired. I initiated talks and get bullshit answer. Oh well; what else am I left? I can't give up. I wish to ring but I don't know what can I say. Nonetheless, I love you. Haha. Together with SAGARA larh. OH well; I miss DA VINCI.

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I got a feeling when I go back everything gonna be different. Just wait and see my dear.
3 weeks of holidays. I'm sick of it. Go back and it will be PRELIM. What fuck is this ?

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Band arh. I missed alot. What can I do?
ha! YOu guys must jia you.
Trombone section most improvement also can larh.
CNT GIB THAT GRACE HAPPY HAPPY. haha.



Trust, responsibility, respect which one will you pick as your top position or will you put it as the same management level?

I'm pretty sure that you know what are the three values. Are you putting any actions in it? Why and why not ?

Life changes in a swift.
In a swift that you can't even see.
So why bother about it.
Live with it to the fullest you can be.

Life changes in a swift.
Be in it or get out of it.
Be clever and stay with it.
Live with it to the fullest you can be.

Life changes in a swift.
It's either you care or you don't.
Choose your path wisely.
Don't end up regretting like many.

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I remembered I did something but it did not appear. I felt so weird out of a suddenly, I double checked it but it somehow went lost. So was it my fault for not checking or did someone mingle with it? Oh well;

I laughed, I cried, I smirk and did everything. I hope it would go smoothly. Okay I think I shan't hide no more since the world is like askin what's happening on 6/9/2006. I'm going for a CT scan, X ray and see what the doctor says about my back. I hope it would be okay. No point regretting. I made it like this.

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Hell or heaven it ain't important .
It's where you know you are going is important .

Choosing left or right brings you to a town .
A town which serves either blood or beer.

Rewinding and rechoose may be the answer
but why turn back and see all the causes which hurt you once again.

fastforwarding leaves you in auto pilot
in other words, you feel nil

Why bother rewinding and hurt yourself?
Why bother fastforwarding and miss your life?

Stop. Think. Act.


oh well;;

i felt condemn by many as my back would be the reason that i cant go here and there.
i made my change and step out of my hse to lot 1.
i hab to change my life.
so wad there's no mre cars, there's still mrt, buses why shld i confine myself?

my clz having BBQ now and i'm at hm.
wakaka. cos ms tan dun allow me to go cos of my back.

ya la. i noe u guys kip me things so u wun hurt my feelings by askin me out.
but at least i shld noe the events on?

i deprive myself and went to lot one.
walk a few rounds and felt refresh.
thx.

i saw rachel raman today.
she din care abt me
i'm hurt.
rachel arent we fwens no mre?

wow!
i hate myself now man.
scrolling and browsing all blogs and i despise my life now.
it's like all happy happy den mine like one shit over dere.

zhu's blog.
zuo's blog.
beh's blog.
hao's blog.
anne's blog.

5 blogs are enough to pull me down already.
chow~

a sports person dangling at hm for so long is a miracle.

很多事情对我来说都已经是麻木了。
我只要看你开心就足够了。
我不管你一整天跟我说了些什么，你自己要知道你快乐吗？

我觉得只要你知道自己在做什么就行了。
我呢？
一个不能出门的人，也像一枝断了翅膀的小鸟。

我不管发生了什么事情。我说过只能听不管。谁知道我会越帮越忙。
大家都看到我笑了。我也开心了。
九月六号
不要来找我。
我会消失。上课的去上课，出去玩得出去玩。
我会在一个很冷的地方等待一种成绩
如果成绩不理想我真的不知道我会怎么办。

看着办吧。我每天都对天祈祷希望事情会好转。
只能等算了，呈现在快乐吧。

谢谢
史老师
两个黄老师
chief !
我收到你们的祝福了，我很好很开心谢谢。
我恐怕吃不完你们给的鸡精。

SPEECHLESS.

DOTS / DOTS / DOTS

THERE ARE TIME FOR EVERYTHING .
CATCH EM' NOW .

Free at last? I don't think so. I am still wrapped up by my jewet braces and still cooping myself at home like a little pet. I have never felt this shit in my life of teenager. I believe it is a punishment for going out always huh? Haha.

I will not care if you are testing me or not. I'm looking at the situation and make a big decision to change my life. Every decision is a big change in your life, every decision you have to make is a detour to another destination. Make it carefully but a detour is still a detour you can still u-turn and return to zero displacement.

You yourself have to brace up. You may have seems to lose everything but think again have you? You have not, smiles. A decision has still not been made, if you cant make it. dont make.